What used to be a trickle of exceptionalism that marred a tiny portion of the white gay male community has recently become a lethal torrent. Perceived ‘equality’ has revealed the true nature of many, many gay white men. No longer humbled by their treatment at the hands of an unfair, homophobic society they have sprung ahead of the pack, claiming that a ‘seat at the table’ is not good enough… instead we must build, decorate and chair the table… governing any meeting it may entertain. Moreover, we don’t really want to share the table with anyone other than really, really good-looking gay white men who all agree and never get angry.
Being gay is like joining a cult.
At gay AA… the greeters don’t greet you unless you are ‘hot’ or ‘famous’.
A Provincetown celebrity (aren’t they all) posted a picture of his smiling mug along side two other grinning, bearded gay men. All three based in Provincetown, on perpetual vacation, they look for all the world as if they are happy. As if they are care free… as if trouble seldom blights their gay paradise. Great pic! They may very well use the pic and pics like them to lure boys on a well-known gay hook up app. In gay paradise everything is perfect. That’s what they insist you believe. Of course… scratch a little beneath the surface of any gay man and one releases the foul odor of resentment, addiction, crippling narcissism and judgement.
I mentioned to Jim Lande who posted the pic that everyone seems so happy all the time in Provincetown? He replied, “Only for the deserving.” Of course, we know what that means. Jim means there is no room in a perfect gay society for an opposing view, an ugly mug, for poverty, for people of color, for mental illness… the deserving are hand-picked from the glut of meat delivered weekly to Provincetown, Fire Island and resorts like them.
Jim describes himself as a Boulevardier, a bohemian… he compliments a video I posted of Sebastian Horsley my great friend… I remind him that Sebastian was a bohemian, he is a gay man wearing a velvet jacket… there’s a difference. He retracts the description of bohemian. He attempts to shame me for going to a boarding school that helps kids who have been abused. It’s the gay go to punishment: SHAME. Did you read that? This exceptional, best little boy who worked in government all his life spying on the good people of the United States is doing what the rancid gay does best… he is trying to shame me for something I could not help. I had no say.
Jim Lande is trapped in Provincetown, posting pics of his amazing life, his amazing friends… he posts endless reviews of the film he helped fund, Love is Strange by Ira Sachs. He describes Ira as a ‘Hollywood Darling.’ Blighted by gay exceptionalism… he reminds me how much money he is going to make, the awards they will win… the plaudits they receive.
Dan spends his summer hop-scotching across the world from gay resort to gay cruise to gay sightseeing. He travels in a pack of identical men. The same age, the same color, the same body weight, hair distribution, the same dietary obsessions… the same unresolved traumas. He is the ‘deserving’.
I met a young man on-line the other day. We had the briefest moment of intimacy. He is ‘desperate’ to be in the film industry. He is ‘discreet’ which is short hand for: I’m careful who I tell I’m gay and what I’m into because it might ruin my career chances. He’s not scared that straight people will find out, little Austin is scared the gays will judge him, the gays will shame him. He doesn’t want gay men to know anything. He is secretive, sneaky and as a result… thoroughly unattractive. He has built himself a hybrid closet (like a panic room) protecting himself from the gays.
(The actor I dated this summer was secretive, sneaky and lied about everything. The gays live in a shadowy world of fantasy, make-believe and lies… my myth busting makes them hate me.)
The society photographer boasts that the boy who loves him is ‘disposable’, he boasts that he fisted him… when I ask the boy what happened… he tells me that the hardest thing about the photographer were his fingers. We seldom talk about erectile dysfunction. Anything other than a hard cock renders a gay man utterly useless. You know, the gays hate me writing my blog. They write snarky notes insisting that I correct tiny details… (“I’m not a director I’m a producer”) as if any one cared!
On Facebook I am pretending to be an old Whitstable codger, enjoying a thread on Julie Burchill‘s Facebook page. Julie hates all Muslims, her page is rife with anti islamic rhetoric. If you disagree with her POV you are immediately branded a ‘jew hater’. She says, “I think I may have mentioned a FEW times that I am a Gentile Socialist Zionist? Why would people come here just to get cross? If you don’t like the tiny democratic state of Israel, surrounded by fascist fiefdoms, fuck off to one of the thousands of Jew-hating Facebook pages? Cheers!”
Her fans scream with joy! Her fans ecstatically revile Islam. Her fans start out by reminding us firmly that they are not racist (they don’t support the British National Party) then, without irony, they go on to say how much they hate all Muslims and want to kill them. I suggested meeting one of these crazy women to discuss exacting revenge on the Muslim population of Chatham…. amazingly she private messaged me in the hope of exacting revenge on Muslims!!!
Then it got pretty scary… these people are fucking INSANE. Julie has no idea what her crazed followers are capable of. She really needs to take that seriously. Whipping those guys up the way she does may lead her to some unsightly trouble… exactly the same trouble other radical preachers have, facing the same criminal charges. You need only one crazy person to do something dumb and cite Julie B as their inspiration…. well, you know the rest.
BTW what exactly is a ‘gentile socialist zionist’?
The only person to spout that kind of anti Muslim shit to me here in the USA was Tom Desanto the gay Producer of Transformers who told me he believed (as a patriot) that all Muslims should convert or be eradicated from the earth because they didn’t like gays. I let him know that my deceased father was a Muslim and several of my 12 brothers and sisters too. He didn’t care. He still thought they should be murdered. Whilst I can sort of understand Julie’s naive zeal as a pre op convert to Judaism I found Tom’s Christian hatred and rabid insistence to kill millions of people based on their beliefs… utterly stunning. He is not a fool. He knew that I would one day write what he said based on our archived text message conversation. Mind you, Tom has always been a person to be suspicious of, one of Bryan Singer‘s cabal he tells anyone who will listen that he will help anyone he can… any way he can… but when the time comes… he is nowhere to be found.