Only three weeks until I am yet again due in Family Court to fight the spurious accusations, lies, falsehoods from that dwarfish, dishonest man who lied his way into my life, my wallet, my heart and my underwear.
This vile fame-whore will rip me out of paradise.
Some cheap liar who had devoted every day of his 30 years to deception.
When he saw me on TV he merely saw his next victim.
Someone else he could use in his war against a woman he said he loved. Risking her health, her sanity. Someone I heard blaming for his shortcomings. He was so angry with her that she didn’t see things his way. A woman who had blindly believed in her man, who will never do so again.
The bigger problem when you let a liar into your life…you end up never trusting.
Every man I have subsequently met I have looked upon with suspicion.
If YOU have had experiences of spurious restraining orders or false orders of protection let me know by emailing me on firstname.lastname@example.org or leaving a message here. If you want to come to court in NYC and support me on the 8th September 2011, let me know.
If you want to cover this story for your gay publication…let me know.
If you have been fucked over by an ex, lied to, cheated to, infected with HIV by someone who said they were clean…if you have never had recourse to get revenge. Let me know.
Men or women.
Let me know.
If you are sick of keeping quiet about the way gay men…men treat each other or women.
Let me know.
I used to have compassion for that man. I used to make excuses for him. I stayed up waiting for him to call. Worrying about him. I urged him to tell her the truth. I convinced him that the truth would set him free. Until recently I thought he should be forgiven. Some people can never be forgiven.
He may have learned his lesson, maybe he tells the truth nowadays? Regardless, he has unfinished business. We need to deal with it. Some day soon the truth will be revealed.
Orders of Protection are well-known for inflaming benign situations, creating malignancy where there was none. He has done just this. The cells of resentment, hatred and revenge are multiplying before my very eyes.
Hey..and before you lecture me about how stupid I was to fall for him. That he was just a 30-year-old kid…look at the men who are killed in Iraq and Afghanistan. Teenagers. If you think that love has logic? Take a look in the fucking mirror and tell me you haven’t done the same. Before you advise me to let go of my resentment, tell me why I should. This may be eating me alive but that’s better than being dead.
He could have killed me.
Before I get advice from angels…take your own inventory. Your own moral pulse.
P.S. No, I don’t have HIV but I hear plenty stories of men who have been cheated out of their negative status by lying queens. Just another thing our fucked up gay community wont talk about.